InsaneJournal

I have been unable to go to school or MWP work with any regularity since Ruby died; I haven't really left the house, I fear visiting my friends in case I risk their lives with my presence, and I certainly can't have anyone here. And my parents have told me that they have great affection for me, but my immediate relocation to join them in the United State is not something they would prefer, given the fears they have of Fenrir hunting me down, no matter where I go.

I have decided, instead of waiting for Fenrir to find me, that I will cease this daily erosion of my life and end it of my own choosing. I have a few more letters to write, but I am expecting to execute this by the end of the night. My plan is to send an owl to the DMLE before I do so, but I thought I would tell you in advance to make sure that the DMLE doesn't disfigure me. I want to be beautiful, especially in death, and I don't exactly trust them not to do something awful, like chip one of my teeth or bruise my skin in some nasty way that would necessitate a closed coffin.

Also, I wanted Blaise

I am writing you a proper letter that expresses my affection for you, but I wanted you to know, before.